想念•遗憾

天下总有不散的筵席，亲人过世是谁都会经历过。
以前还很小的时候有跟婆婆相处过一段时间，她很疼我们，或许是她不在的时候我们都还很小，所以没有很感伤。
那天，我家的小堂妹她走了。
她的离开确实令我感到很难过很难过。。
表哥表弟堂姐堂妹都很心疼很伤心。。
妹妹是一个12岁的小女孩，但是因为她有个天生的遗传病，所以打从她到这个世界上就要每个星期都受针孔的折磨。。
或许是因为她从小就有病，所以身边的人都会比较疼她将就她。
所以养成了她霸道的个性，甚至是她让我感觉她没有一个12岁小孩的童真 :(
她说话会有大人的语气，想法甚至比大人还成熟。。
她很喜欢顶嘴，这样的小孩讨喜吗？
但是有时候她还是个很可爱的小女孩 :)
肥肥矮矮的。 我爸很喜欢叫她‘肥妹’，然后她就会用一种不屑的眼神盯着我爸。
我很想念那个‘眼神’。。。
整天吵着说要吃好料的她 :(
这一年她在我家住了几个月，所以我们都曾经相处过一段时间。。。
她放学后都会到我们家，有时周末的时候都会来跟我睡。
那个时候就已经看到她身上有很多打针过后抽血过后的疤痕。。
当你看到那些疤痕的时候你也会替她感到可怜 心痛
但是她的痛，是我不能感受到的。。
直到半年前，她爸妈找到了能够把她的病根治的医院，半年前就到台湾治疗了。
我猜当她到台湾的时候的心情一定是很开心，但是不懂治疗的过程是那么的辛苦。
半年前我离家到外面继续升学，小堂妹到了台湾。那个时候我们也没有联络了。。
我也是在几个星期前才知道妹妹的状况。
我以为她在台湾可以把病治好，但我万万没想到她的情况已经是很严重了 =(
那时我觉得自己挺没用，到这个时候才来了解她的状况。。
妹妹的姐姐都在台湾陪着她。。他告诉我妹妹已经是不能讲话了。
听说肺受细菌感染，需要用插管来呼吸。
那我问她：‘你有带你的iPad给他玩吗？’
‘妹妹根本玩不到，她的手都插着管’
我在想，为什么要让她承受那么多？ =(
在那一段时间妹妹都是在昏迷状态。。
到最后妹妹选择放弃。我很久没有见过她了。。
离开对她来说或许是好，不用再受苦了。。
我们都知道，妹妹生前最想看到的是他的爸爸。。
但现在却变成了遗憾。。。
妹妹，我们永远怀念你。。。

Busy week is coming

It's November now! still got 1 more month then i can back my hometown. But is the time to face my final exam :( oh gosh! I'm worry about my economy subject aiks. i don;t want to retake -,- dont wanna see the lecturer next year again. the report's mark is killing me! my whole course mark is low because of this sucks report! arghhh!!! can i scold the lecturer?? stupid lecturer sucks lecturer! he gave us wrong information but he doesn't feel he is wrong! zz should give him a failed grade (Y) whatever. must study hard now and get high marks in final exam. haiz
i felt...my life is much boring. suck..
today is astro国际华裔小姐live show! but i cant watch i have no astro now :( how sad hmmmm. but i just watched some video from youtube which is avout this.. haha seem like many people support 'JuWei' ha i dont know who but however support jiayou! they can in semifinal i think this is really a hard job. they will criticize by others. i think this should be have a tough heart haha. however, although they were participated the competition, can felt some of the miss is dont know to care others feeling >_< can feel that through the videos! 人面兽心 TT
whatever la! focus on my long run short run, diseconomies or market structure what else!

Geraldin & Jie Ying came Inti International University

Geraldin & Jie Ying came Inti International University yesterday ^-^ happy hehe. althought there are not really famuos, because i heard my friends said they don't know who are them! God - - but however i proud of then :) because they took part in the taiwan's show '超级星光大道'! and Jie Ying like get the third place if no wrong, please don't blame because i really forgot ha XD They went Inti last night for our uni event 'Charity night' and the purpose is to raise funds and send to the people or children who are need moneys much to lead them to a better life. A lot of nice perfom last night! but some is really make me bored hehe. hmm the first show is a boy name Gloson Teh who are only 14years old and he is great in reciting funny poem. but i can't concentrate because the story is quiet long hee~~

so this is his video n_n

and next,

hmm actually i don't knw who are them. but the youtube video discription wrote from FlyFm so i thk they are the DJ from FlyFm lol. sorry maybe sometime i only listen to the MyFM and 988 or ai-FM hehe. but however the boy's sound is nice and soft and sing well !:p

and this this! Douglas Lim! i likes him! i likes his show XD he told us a lot of jokes last night! XD let me tell you an example. he said chinese is not efficiency in making fun. but chinese is efficiency in 3 things. 1st is efficiency in finance!(all ppl clap XD) 2nd is efficiency in kungfu! 3rd is efficiency in being ALONG! hahaha so actually fiance + kungfu = ALONG! HAHAHAHA all the ppl really laugh non-stop! :D maybe you don't thk what im saying now is not funny but i really cant describe haha if only you were there last night! n.n DouglasLim this is his website if you want know more his thing XD

and the finally, the whole night i waiting for is just for Geraldin and Jie Ying!!!they appear at 10++ and i'm starving liao - -'' haha whatever i already bought their 'BFF' album and then want to get their signature oh ^-^

BFF

nice song :) Support them always!

Yeah got it :) 

 HI Geraldine & JieYing =)

 Sorry for the blur pic!

Great show Inti International University Leo club! n_n

19/10/2012

我觉得我的部落格总是以‘好久没更新了’作开头 -_- 哈~
部落格好久没有更新了 :x 这个long semester有让我挺懊恼的事情。 为什么会有PRINCIPLES OF ECONOMICS啊？没有兴趣的说 :( lecturer偏心 unfair 更让我不懂怎样让自己有兴趣！难怪常被投诉。看到同班的同学可以拿到13/15，真的很羡慕的说，下个test我也可以！其他科目倒是有兴趣，希望我的名字会有机会出现在faculty's Dean's list ;) Ptptn终于出了。这个semester's fee反而还要倒贴 hmm 听其他朋友说借ptptn是当额外零用钱用，学费家长一样会帮他们换。好好 -_- 我可以用ptptn的钱买衣服吗? :D
上个星期去剪了头发！半年没剪过。头发是又厚又长。半年之间从胸部到腰，我猜别人的话要一年的时间才能留到那么长哈哈。

其实应该在剪之间拍一张后面的头发 哈哈。头发薄了真好！n.n 剪发当天我的Boss也一起剪。

像Boss没有？ n.n

跟这个Boss在一起快2年了。其实我们没有很sweet :P 什么热恋期都已经过了，常常吵架就有-_-或许是习惯了，但还是喜欢跟他在一起。

爱你咯~哈哈 n.n

中秋节快乐

中秋节快乐。 中秋佳节我也只能待在校园内度过。 没有佳肴， 没有吃不完的月饼，没有扣肉吃！我想回家！:(
我真的不想发脾气，很down！或许你应该想想我为什么发脾气，不是怪我发脾气。
什么是没有你我也可以过得很好？什么是不要以为没了你我会死？我真的很失望很心痛。
无所谓

Saturday night

Saturday night, should be family day, hang out with friends, have party rock the night. but im stuck in hostel now aiks-.- i have no family day nw my hometown is so far away :(
received postal parcel yesterday ;) thanks baba mummy. a lot of food inside..hehe

i wonder that how to find this type of la mian in kl. hihi this is nice than maggie ayam!product from japan?

panda mooncake hoho. i knew this is selling in johor!and nw is in my hand

one of my outfit of dinner night. at'The ship'. haha yes? or no?:p  

my hair is longer and longer..gonna cut my hair next hair.but i dont know which saloon i should go hehe. do give advise to me..hehe. 

Iphone5 is selling now. i guess its RM3500?? so expensive one. i have no ability to buy it. but im sure i can buy it one day:) maybe Iphone 5s is out that time xp

so, what do you think?XD Iphone5? htc one x? or SIII? haha but the conclusion the s3 is better. but ppls are greedy. once they get s3, they will want iphone5. haha 'WANTS' is unlimited to us... so, study hard now then no more pocket money from parents is the good choice! :>

20.09.2012

hi all, i'm really never ever update my blog recently :( i'm lazy :( so now gonna post my first sep. post..........lolll

back nilai since august. it is only one month? arhh i'm homesick!! :( i miss mummy i miss baba :(( the next time i'll be back is december. llong time! sigh sigh many assignments and test is going on this few weeks. i hope i can handle it all. baba sent a postal parcel to me ytd, will receive it tmr! cannot wait for it. represents that's is mummy and baba :( did you ever tell your parents that you love them? even that you are really love them, but never say out the words I LOVE YOU MUM AND DAD. it's hard to say out :( nvm i know i will do it one day in the future!

tdy i ate the 'bullshit tart' which from sabah yeah. you will not found it in kl :( its famous in sabah!

bullshit tart :D

last few weeks i went kl with my boy. went many places. and my first time pass the national day at kl! stadium negara! went 'The Ship' the best steak in town in bukit bintang

the situation of the national day..Bersih! haha. bt dissapointed because no hv much fireworks to watch. quite boring too no any show- - whatever i had a experience:D

i hope i can be more active in any activities even is to know new frens. aiks o_o last night my college have a event 'street party'. its party rock night!! pasar malam inside the IU campus road..i thk it is a big event. last nigth have a dance competition. but sad i cant watch. ppl is all around the dancer - -only can stand beside and hear ppl shout shout shout loll. besides they invite malaysia's famous DJ Eva Tand MC sean beazzie came to join the party.

is in our IU campus!!the whole campus just like clubbing - -

it's late. continue blog tmr stay tuned :p

Home sweet home..

回家了！=) I'm home =) no more money to stay there..haha..stay at outside almost one month,miss my family :( luckily i have no acting cry when reached home hehe..feel comfortable !<3 meet ma frens.. waiting my 18th birthday..then i have no any 'junior card' already! but i thk i will feel lonely :( 18th birthday meaningless because someone is not beside me and cannot celebrate with me :( sigh~~ 

Are you still remember me?

Everything run smoothly here? yeah :) but not all..yeah i can bck my sweet home on 29 july T.T one month didn't meet my family already. Inti really is a ‘森林大学’. hahaha. i heard other ppl said. agree-,- our college only got restaurant and mini markets around us. oh ya, and the Qiant and Tesco. hmmm how pity we are. hahaha however it is a benefit for us too. because we no need spend many money in shopping centre lol. althought here is so far away from the kl, but also have some case of rob. a student who from china had been rob last night, she put many valueble thg inside her bag, around Rm2k @@ haih unlucky.
last last week our school's QS club had bring us (junior members) go to Putrajaya. a short trip to visit the big big masjid in putrajaya. it's really so big for malay to sembayang.. hmmm.. lecturer told us that our work on future is need to count those materials, quantity of floor tiles the whole building need. HAHAHA! we had visited the PICC. the place for ah jib gor meeting, ya it is quite big, their chair all are made by leather- - so now show u the pictures here :D

 our group photo :) all my coursemate ya ^-^ *its blur :(

inti have many events. i had attented the arientation night last week :D its just lk a '香港小姐'show :D

and it is only for INTIANS :D Ms INTI and Mr INTI! yeah many catwalk shows that night@@ dance, sing sang sung..haha..quite fun and enjoy to the show!

this is one of the show on that night. hmm nt so clearly E:

yesterday i found the 'INTI International University OLE May 2012' ^^ this video will be part of my memory in my college life ;)

Did you saw me inside this video? C:

here i tell u a joke. do you know what this picture mentioned?this picture is copied from FB. yeah it is said about a tree, and the tree has house. hahaha. our house in sabah?:D i'm come from sabah and I study at inti nilai. last time i heard my fren who is from johor, and he asked me 'is it you all who from sabah live on the tree?' nani?????? i cant believe that still got ppl will think like this in this times..hmmm..its ok. although sabah is small lk a ant, but doesn't means that our generation is outdate compare to other country..sabah is always advances to every side. and we all aren't live on the tree :> we have house on the road= =i thk my fren who said we live on the trees need come to sabah and have a look. :D sabah is not outdate although it is no many shopping centre as KL. but sabah is safe and natural :)

First time..

its late now..and i'm tired :( but i'm not going to sleep.. feel like something gonna to do..like..hmm blogger??confusing??yeah~my U-life begin soon..excited?-,-no :( nervous now..i'm now in kuala lumpur..the place i went when the school holiday..then after few days bck SDK..yeah now my feel is like travelling at here just for few days and then bck hme with dad..but.......NO!!i'm gonna stay at here almost two months then just bck my hometown..first time i leave my home my family that long period..i hope i can adapt the life here..heal my 'homesick'..and maybe i will always update my blog?haha i hope :) have a new life here..with my hubby<3 know more frens..(i hope they are kind T.T)  tomorrow i will attend the OLE! hope it wont so bored..and hope have fun! ;) its late..and goodnite la!^^ 

真爱 *

    ‘’你放工了吧？‘’我痴痴地站在窗口旁等他回复短讯，半小时后，他终于回复短信。

    ‘’对啊，刚到家。今晚很累了，明早再聊吧。早点休息哦！‘’

    虽然他在午夜1时才到家，我也体恤他的忙碌，但我还是很想跟他聊几句。

    ‘’我等你很久了，你真的很累吗？可以聊天吗？‘’

    ‘’我真的很累！你早点睡吧。我去睡了。‘’

    以前的他，不会为了工作很累，而不理会我。不管多晚，他都会抽出时间来陪我。这次却例外，我心想，他肯定是累坏了。

    ‘’你早点休息。明早再聊吧。晚安。‘’

    我尽量安抚自己不要乱想，可能他真的是累坏了。就让他好好休息吧。我脑海还想着刚才短讯的内容，但疲累的身躯已经忍不住与周公相见。

    ‘’铃。。。。。。‘’

    手机响了，没想到这么早会有人打电话来。我接了电话，听见对方是他，就好奇的问了起来。

    ‘’你怎么这么早打电话来？什么重要的事吗？‘’

    ‘’昨晚。。。。。。对不起。。。。。。实在是太累了。。。。。。我知道我不应该不理会你。。。。。。‘’他很紧张的解释，他的紧张让他口吃。

    ‘’没关系。我可以谅解。你不用担心啦。‘’听见他的解释，我顿时放下心中大石。

    到了公司，我听到隔壁部门的小缅说，‘’你们听说吗？隔壁部门林小姐的男朋友昨天好像跟老板的女儿出去，好像还喝醉呢，想必林小姐一定很伤心。

    他们说的林小姐不就是我吗？他做了什么是会与老板的女儿在一起？难道他要抛下我吗？心里有好多问号，好多疑惑，这一天根本无法认真工作，直到午餐时间我发了短讯给他。

    ‘’听我公司的人说，你昨晚与我老板的女儿出去喝酒，是真的吗？我还以为你是真的去工作，你是真的要这样抛弃我了吗？你是不是与老板的女儿有了一点恋情？到底多久了？‘’

    ‘’老实告诉你，我是与你老板的女儿紫文出去，那不代表我在和她交往。我们在一起那么久了，你不要为了一些谣言来怀疑我，难道你不相信我了吗？你是真心为我好吗？‘’看着他回复的短讯，我的眼泪流下来。

    ‘’对不起，我不应该这样怀疑你。真的很对不起，那是因为我太在乎你，所以才会这样想。请你原谅我！我真的好担心，担心哪怕有一天，你会离开我。对不起！‘’

    发了短讯不到十分钟，他出现在我的面前。他紧紧地抱着我。

    ‘’傻瓜，我说过要一起共度难关，一起环游世界，一起享受人生，一起做我们想要做的事。你怎么胡思乱想。‘’

    ‘’你说我傻，那你喜欢上一个傻子你不就更傻吗？‘’听着他说完这段话，我的眼泪已经弄湿了他的上衣。

    ‘’对啊！只有傻的才会爱上你。哈哈！‘’眼泪中带来了欢笑，我不再怀疑他。

                                                                                                                                                                                                     

这篇应该是一篇很短很短的小说吧。这是我在自由日报里面拷贝的。纯粹只是想分享，我觉得不错 C: 因为‘似曾相识’ 哈哈XD 这也是应该很多情侣都会面对的问题吧。偶尔会有一些误会。但是只要有一方低声下气，主动的好好解释，只要不要硬碰硬，到最后还是解决问题了啊 ^^

Gathering night..

hey guys~! do you still remember? :D sure you want remember me! wahaha..sorry that i'm didn't update my blog..i have nothing to share with you all T_T my life is full of boring recently x.x BUTTT....recently, my life is added some colour?hmm dont know how described..hehe..just not boring like before-,- so let start and share ^^hope you guys like my post and continue watching my blog ya! although im seldom to update my blog >< paiseh~

April of 8 i had changed a hp :P what hp i had bought? SAMSUNG GALAXY SII (Y)

Waste is a disease. Dont be a carrier. I guess DIGI wanna be the environmental protection ambassador :P

if you cant see the small words, please click here :) sorry that i dun knw how to make it bigger><hmm..and NOTICE! the smartphone price not RM899 but is RM999..howeve it is also cheap :P if you are interesting, fast go the DIGI centre and knw more information..because the this DG plan will be stop if the smartphone is out of stock..why im look like DG staff??@_@not! im just share to you and let you knw ;) however im kinda kinda love this smartphone..:P hope it will accompany me till long long time hahaha..because im so careless to use a hp -,- hope it wont fall down from my hand ya :D

few days ago i had attened a gathering night with my buddys girlss ^^ and also farewell for some of my BFF yy ;'( hope we can date each other when at kl :( keep in touch <3 i will always miss you all C:♥

there was 12people attended this gathering night ^^ and there was only two boys that night XD we went to 'Malaysia Steamboat & Seafood Restaurant'. the whole restaurant only have us and few customer..because that day is Monday haha..show you picture C:

guess which is catherine! :P

 something wrong XD

 we are smile team ^^v

 smile smile smile!:)

The girls C:

 my face always seem like so fat!

 nice shoot ^^

 hahaha mee mee!! her t-shirt is so cute :P

 trisha, what pose is this? haha..

 and im playing smartphone! :P

 :O

 you can find this two girl be the ice-cream spokespersons :D

LALALA~~~

 ahaha with half face..

 the only two boys~haha..

 Trisha and i

 mey mey and i

 simple me C:

 yy and i

 E:

 moi moi and i

around 9something we had finished our steamboat :P and the second round we decided to go Nak Hotel, Balin..in Sandakan Town opposite the AIA.. if you never go there before, then next time bring your lover or friend go there..nice place and comfortable ^^ boy can at here to ask your gf to marry you :P i thk will so romantic and she sure will say 'YES'! haha..and sorry i didn't take some photo when at there..because we just go up and go the top of the hotel..

we are on the top of the Nak hotel..ME~~ C: and then,we leaved there -,- haha because that night had rained..so there is dampness..those bench are wet..so we changed place and go to the 'Best Western' at mile 3.5..there also is a nice place to have a drink :)

 trisha reli love her rilakkuma much..haha..after this round im going find my hubby and with him together..i miss him so much <3

so got fate because we was wearing the same colour clothes ah C: hehe..the most happy moment that is when together with him C:

I Love You.

对你，有千言万语。 C: